So it's been awhile since the last time I blogged.Alot has happened.First is first.Yes,indeed my grandfather is back in the hospital.I really don't like talking about it but where else can I just put all my emotions.I'm always tense and get really moody all the time.I wear my religious bracelet and every time I look at it I just think of him and hope he gets better but I just don't have that much hope as I did before but I try to stay positive.But how can I when almost every person gives me shit or gets mad at me and flips out because my ex-boyfriend came into my life.It doesn't mean I'm with him it just simply means were friends and it's not like I'm hooking up with him.Ignoring me just leads me to more anger.Whatever do what you want.
My sister came over and I haven't seen her in a week.We blasted music and chilled.When my parents came home from work I gave them the big news.I looked at my dad and said "Daddy,I'm running in the varsity meet Sunday." The look my father had in his face just made me smile big.My sister attacked me with hugs and kisses saying congrats over and over.My dad gave me hug kissed me on the top of my head and said "I'm proud of you sweetie."As for my mom she started calling all the family members and get the whole family out to support me.
School wise.I miss just talking and smiling to my best friends.But I just feel like there's so much tension for no reason.Hopefully it will get by.
Christmas?I have no idea what I'm doing.I'm completely clueless.But it's always the same every year.What will I even do this year with my grandpa in the hospital.He has no one to spend it with:/ plus me and my sister are going to go to my grandma's grave and put flowers there.
Relationship wise?Who knows what's going to happen anymore.I recently just got put down to the curb and I don't want to get up to quickly or I'll get dizzy.When I feel down I just put music on and lay down and relax.I've been happy lately but also confused.I simply don't know what to do anymore.Just hang out with my friends and go party with the guys and just live my life like it should be.
"Waiting Patiently for a smile to appear..."
nataliaa_ericaa
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