Emotions

You know how I said before it's not bad letting out your emotions...well I never did and probably never will.I keep everything to myself and everything inside.I'm the type of person who will do anything to put a smile on my face then on my own.People constantly tell me this isn't good...I know.I choose not to.It's hard for me to open up to people.I don't know what their reaction might be,or what I'll say,or what may occur.If something bothers me I just take it out when I run,box,play sports,anything aggressive.If I'm upset to the point I need to cry,I'll lock myself in my room and won't associate with anyone.I'll cry alone and it doesn't bother me.Eventually,I'll go into a deep sleep and sometimes regain my energy if not lost.But I always have a smile on my face even when I'm in pain.I don't like it when people pity me or I'll just cry harder inside.It's not good keeping your emotions inside because everything just bottles up and you'll explode...but I never did.I can control myself.I'm every ones diary but no one is my diary.I'm every ones counselor but no one is mine.I'm perfectly fine with that.I'll do anything to make you smile.As for me,I try to get things off my mind different ways.I hate seeing people upset...but it's life.There are going to be good and bad days.You just simply have to push the bad days away and move on...it's life.

nataliaa_ericaa