July 23, 2010
Madison and Corey picked me up at 5ish. We went to the mall and ate pizza. Me and Madison we're checking out girls saying yeah or no lmfaoo. When we got our slices we couldn't stop laughing and Corey is so funny. This random guy went by us looking at us like hardcore and the three of us looked down trying not to laugh and I was the first to crack. They followed me after. Then , we went to get a drink and return her ring back. Let me remind you the lady at the register was a bitch and me and Madison got pissed. We went to Spencer's with Corey and we we're trying to find best friends bracelets or necklaces or rings because our broke and Corey was showing what he had in his dorm room of his sex fantasy and I just shook my head. Finally , me and Madison found a bracelet to represent us and then she bought me a gay pride bracelet.
We left then went to Corey's house and I met his mom. We went bowling and I wrecked everyone in the 2nd game with a 165 :P . After bowling we went to BK because I was starving and then to Madison's house. I came home at 11:40. It was a good day (:
Nataliaa
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Don't play me
July 22 , 2010
"I'm watching the notebook , I miss you Natalia. I was thinking about you today (: "
"Hey , sorry I was showering and awh we still have to watch that movie together (: and what about me <3"
"I was telling my friend how I'm done with guys and I want a girlfriend, then I was telling her how the only girl I was almost with, I screwed things up with, which was you. But I was telling her how we're still friends but I miss how we were."
"I miss how things we're between us. Don't blame the whole thing on you because it was my fault to because I let you go when I should have chased after you."
"No but it was my fault. And I admit it , and I know it."
" You can't avoid me forever :P"
"I can't avoid you at all"
A couple of hours go by .
"<3>
"I miss you more<3"
"Awh nahh . I do."
"Imagine that ? Get the fuck outta here with that , you know I miss you more because I always be texting you boo :D"
"Nah b, texting don't compare to feelings. I miss you more, Alot ! Your such a cutiepie , your adorable. I love you<3 "
" I love you more than anything. Just remember that <3"
We fell asleep and said our goodnights (:
"I know in the end , you'll break my heart "
Nataliaa
"I'm watching the notebook , I miss you Natalia. I was thinking about you today (: "
"Hey , sorry I was showering and awh we still have to watch that movie together (: and what about me <3"
"I was telling my friend how I'm done with guys and I want a girlfriend, then I was telling her how the only girl I was almost with, I screwed things up with, which was you. But I was telling her how we're still friends but I miss how we were."
"I miss how things we're between us. Don't blame the whole thing on you because it was my fault to because I let you go when I should have chased after you."
"No but it was my fault. And I admit it , and I know it."
" You can't avoid me forever :P"
"I can't avoid you at all"
A couple of hours go by .
"<3>
"I miss you more<3"
"Awh nahh . I do."
"Imagine that ? Get the fuck outta here with that , you know I miss you more because I always be texting you boo :D"
"Nah b, texting don't compare to feelings. I miss you more, Alot ! Your such a cutiepie , your adorable. I love you<3 "
" I love you more than anything. Just remember that <3"
We fell asleep and said our goodnights (:
"I know in the end , you'll break my heart "
Nataliaa
Thursday, July 22, 2010
What Is Love?
July 22 , 2010
Spent the day with my dad. I had to go back to the doctor. Heart racing , palms sweating , stomach shaking. I had the nerves coming to me. " Natalia Guzman , Doctor is ready to see you." ... " Dad come with me " Well , they gave my shots that wasn't necessary and my doctor told me there's nothing to worry about. OK ? Uhm ... there's a giant bump in the back of my head and you say not to worry about it ;; cool. I have to get blood work done tomorrow as soon as my dad gets out of work but I can't eat at all after 10 p.m. and until I wake up . How will I survive? I don't know , don't ask.
"Dad what is love ? "
" LOVE is spending time with your daughter"
My dad makes me cry with the things he says.
My sister texted me making sure everything is OK with me. My mom called and bugged out on my dad because she doesn't like the fact the doctor isn't doing anything for me. I was sitting on the floor and I heard my mom screaming on the floor while my dad is in the kitchen. My mom is just worried because her brother died with what I'm going through ... SCARY .
I think today is the day I'm going to cry myself to sleep while listening to music again.
Nataliaa
Spent the day with my dad. I had to go back to the doctor. Heart racing , palms sweating , stomach shaking. I had the nerves coming to me. " Natalia Guzman , Doctor is ready to see you." ... " Dad come with me " Well , they gave my shots that wasn't necessary and my doctor told me there's nothing to worry about. OK ? Uhm ... there's a giant bump in the back of my head and you say not to worry about it ;; cool. I have to get blood work done tomorrow as soon as my dad gets out of work but I can't eat at all after 10 p.m. and until I wake up . How will I survive? I don't know , don't ask.
"Dad what is love ? "
" LOVE is spending time with your daughter"
My dad makes me cry with the things he says.
My sister texted me making sure everything is OK with me. My mom called and bugged out on my dad because she doesn't like the fact the doctor isn't doing anything for me. I was sitting on the floor and I heard my mom screaming on the floor while my dad is in the kitchen. My mom is just worried because her brother died with what I'm going through ... SCARY .
I think today is the day I'm going to cry myself to sleep while listening to music again.
Nataliaa
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Back To the OLD
So , I realized I'm going to post my personal life on here instead of Tumblr because I don't want random people creeping up on me and knowing my life. Well , I know the same goes for here but I don't know . I feel better here. More open. A lot has been on my mind since yesterday. My mom told me I'm most likely going to get surgery. I hung out with my sister today to do wedding stuff for her and she took me to McDonald's after. She actually teared up while eating because she was worried about the whole surgery procedure and if I was going to get it.
She treats me like I'm her daughter. She worries when I think she shouldn't. Then she asked me if I was scared. Well , I'm not going to lie. I am. I don't know what to expect out of it. Other than that, we had fun and I just got home recently. I got into an argument with my parents but it passed by. Anyways , I've been neglecting blogger when I shouldn't have. I don't mind coming back here.
Nataliaa
She treats me like I'm her daughter. She worries when I think she shouldn't. Then she asked me if I was scared. Well , I'm not going to lie. I am. I don't know what to expect out of it. Other than that, we had fun and I just got home recently. I got into an argument with my parents but it passed by. Anyways , I've been neglecting blogger when I shouldn't have. I don't mind coming back here.
Nataliaa
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Mixture of my thoughts
Let me get my thoughts together and try to summarize everything that has occurred this whole time I was away from my computer.
Oh, the lovely drama that never seems to fade but only gets stronger as the days go by. Can it all just stop and disappear for a day? Not so much.
I had a lot planned for this month. February? Why? Is it because of Valentine's Day? No, it couldn't be. I didn't have a Valentine. Fuck It. I don't want to remember Valentine's Day at all this year. It was the worst. A nightmare that I will never forget. Regret ever going out on this day. Ashamed;;Embarrassed. End of Story.
No, February? What else happens? I remember. My sister's birthday. February 18. But it's also my Grandma's birthday. We haven't celebrated it in 4 years because my sister was devastated to celebrate her birthday for once without my grandma.
No, February? Winterball? Was once excited for it but once it was cancelled, all hell broke loose. Christian? He got mad at me and flipped out. OK? Done talking to you until you cool down a bit.
What else is there?
Getting random texts that confuse me...thinking more
Anyways, I became close with Aly and even though she lives in North Plainfield it feels like she lives down the street. We legit talk about nothing. We laugh over our text faces we make towards each other and we're always there for each other. She gets overprotective sometimes which makes me feel safe for a little while. She doesn't mind that I'm busy, or running in track 24/7, or working out on the weekends, or sleeping all day, or doing anything or nothing. She knows a lot about me in the amount of what? 2 weeks we've known each other. I accept her the way she is and she accepts the things I do. She supports me in everything I want to do or become. We joke around about our teachers and laugh non-stop.
Enough of that...
You know how you can care about someone so much but they never realize it. Every time, you make an effort to talk to them and they just push you away or don't bother talking to you. And you may with weeks without talking or hanging out. Yeah well that happens a lot now a days.
How about when your friend sets you up and you lose your other friend because of it? Yeah that happened this month to.
What else happened?
Uhm...everything I planned failed.Had a big track meet on the 12th and that sucked. I didn't get to Sandburg at 11:15 and I didn't get home until 11:30. Ruined my plans to hang out with Natalie and Sami and everyone else that went to Sami's house that night.We had those snow days but I was sick. Snow everywhere felt amazing. Olaa and track? fun as hell had snowball fights and ran around in the snow was our workout. Lifted weights with Somers. Track party? Soon Braces? Off very soon:D I'll smile even more.
I miss everything about you and the way we used to chill...
"Living it up :D"
nataliaa_ericaa
Oh, the lovely drama that never seems to fade but only gets stronger as the days go by. Can it all just stop and disappear for a day? Not so much.
I had a lot planned for this month. February? Why? Is it because of Valentine's Day? No, it couldn't be. I didn't have a Valentine. Fuck It. I don't want to remember Valentine's Day at all this year. It was the worst. A nightmare that I will never forget. Regret ever going out on this day. Ashamed;;Embarrassed. End of Story.
No, February? What else happens? I remember. My sister's birthday. February 18. But it's also my Grandma's birthday. We haven't celebrated it in 4 years because my sister was devastated to celebrate her birthday for once without my grandma.
No, February? Winterball? Was once excited for it but once it was cancelled, all hell broke loose. Christian? He got mad at me and flipped out. OK? Done talking to you until you cool down a bit.
What else is there?
Getting random texts that confuse me...thinking more
Anyways, I became close with Aly and even though she lives in North Plainfield it feels like she lives down the street. We legit talk about nothing. We laugh over our text faces we make towards each other and we're always there for each other. She gets overprotective sometimes which makes me feel safe for a little while. She doesn't mind that I'm busy, or running in track 24/7, or working out on the weekends, or sleeping all day, or doing anything or nothing. She knows a lot about me in the amount of what? 2 weeks we've known each other. I accept her the way she is and she accepts the things I do. She supports me in everything I want to do or become. We joke around about our teachers and laugh non-stop.
Enough of that...
You know how you can care about someone so much but they never realize it. Every time, you make an effort to talk to them and they just push you away or don't bother talking to you. And you may with weeks without talking or hanging out. Yeah well that happens a lot now a days.
How about when your friend sets you up and you lose your other friend because of it? Yeah that happened this month to.
What else happened?
Uhm...everything I planned failed.Had a big track meet on the 12th and that sucked. I didn't get to Sandburg at 11:15 and I didn't get home until 11:30. Ruined my plans to hang out with Natalie and Sami and everyone else that went to Sami's house that night.We had those snow days but I was sick. Snow everywhere felt amazing. Olaa and track? fun as hell had snowball fights and ran around in the snow was our workout. Lifted weights with Somers. Track party? Soon Braces? Off very soon:D I'll smile even more.
I miss everything about you and the way we used to chill...
"Living it up :D"
nataliaa_ericaa
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Yeah OK?
There she goes again...walking right past me, like nothing ever happened, like if she never saw me. I felt like everything back fired on me and I just stay quiet feeling like if I say something my words will become twisted up and since you believe everyone else over me. It's fine. I kept my cool but you honestly don't understand how much I want to yell at you, how much I want to curse you off, put you down like all the times you made me feel like shit and made me cry, or just cry my eyes out like there's no tomorrow. I kept it fair by just keeping quiet because I need to control my emotions and just move on. Me like an idiot always thought it was my fault and I ended up crawling to your feet saying sorry because I couldn't stand when you were upset because I'd burst every time you accused me of something I didn't do. I noticed when I sit in class, I have my head down and barely talk. I can't look into any one's eyes because mine start to tear up. I fiddle with things that aren't even necessary and think. Think to myself. My thoughts get broken off when my phone rings or my parents call me downstairs. And then I'm back to reality.
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